Category Archives: self

Letters to myself. On emptiness.

When you feel the familiar chill of the void opening within you, the deafening vibration of the growing vacuum, the infinite sinkhole of the Big Empty, don’t do what you usually do – reach for the phone, like a Pavlovian … Continue reading

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Love addiction – the ultimate post (inspired by @melissabroder)

This article by Melissa Broder and her book ‘Pisces’ were the latest eureka moment in my understanding of love addiction. The dots connected, the pieces clicked – could it be it? Am I healed? I have meticulously mind mapped Broder’s key concepts … Continue reading

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Winter is different this year #SAD #happiness

Usually winters are the worst. It’s too cold, too grey, too miserable, I go stir crazy stuck inside. This winter feels different. Or more precisely I am different. I now aim to walk 10k steps every day whatever the weather. … Continue reading

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The Mind Explorers: A Psychedelic Weekend #documentary #psilocybin

And here it is – the culmination of my ‘magic mushroom’ retreat with the UK Psychedelic Society in September. The film made by Rebecca Coxon. In most of my appearances I am weeping and in one manage to sob while … Continue reading

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How can someone figure out their purpose in life? #happiness #quora

I grappled with this question for years. Of course the answer is as simple as it’s difficult. And it’s only recently that I actually felt it. Below is an extract from Jack Kornfield’s book titled ‘After The Ecstasy, The Laundry’ … Continue reading

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The Mind Explorers – London premiere and live Q&A, come and say hi!

Recently I posted A new milestone… a new door opened… a new world discovered… #happiness. So what has been this amazing spiritual growth experience that has blown my mind so much? Inspired by the likes of Stan Grof, Ram Dass and … Continue reading

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I don’t want to forget #happiness

How to not forget this? To not let the memories fade? To keep the fire burning And see the wolf’s starry eyes in the night sky? How to remember That the void is just a hand away And that this … Continue reading

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