Category Archives: self

Learning to love my anger/ rage as a practice

Posted on July 11, 2020 by lolkin

Burning Desire, Mariko Mori  Anger appears as a faint buzz in the back of my brain, a mild irritation, a barely noticeable ticking noise growing louder. A high pitched detonator inside my brain. Me, me, me. Hate, hate, hate. Instead … Continue reading →

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Rumination, or obsessive thinking, and what to do when it becomes too much

Posted on June 27, 2020 by lolkin

Many of us believe that we are our thoughts, or rather many of us don’t stop to think whether what our minds are telling us in the form of thoughts is true or not, because the belief that thoughts are … Continue reading →

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My Quarantine Diary #coronavirus

Posted on June 13, 2020 by lolkin

I am reposting this post – I decided to stop at 60 entries starting from day 0. I lost track of the days a couple of times 🙂   We’ve now been in the lockdown for more than 12 weeks … Continue reading →

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Burn baby burn. What can we do with ourselves in times of coronavirus.

Posted on April 18, 2020 by lolkin

Who is up to what these days? I volunteer with the Hear Me App where I talk to folks from all over the world who need someone to talk to. And everyone is struggling, myself included. I’ve spent the first … Continue reading →

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What if not knowing what next is an achievement?

Posted on February 23, 2020 by lolkin

I’ve been mini-retired for 6 months. Retirement is a great way to practice emptiness. Six months of non-doing and facing uncertainty is when I usually hit the psychological threshold and the monkey brain spirals into anxiety. You know the script … Continue reading →

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Do you feel lonely tonight? #happiness #quora

Posted on January 18, 2020 by lolkin

I write about happiness and meaning here but also on Quora. I wanted to re-post my answer below (source). When you feel the familiar chill breeze of the void opening within you, the deafening vibration of the growing vacuum, the … Continue reading →

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Emptiness practice – spending time with family during holidays

Posted on December 28, 2019 by lolkin

Remember this post? This year I am blessed with family staying over the holidays – paraphrasing Ram Dass, I will uncover my “secret stash” and “burn in the fire, cooking my seeds” 🙂 Normally I would lose my shit at … Continue reading →

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Emptiness practice – stuff

Posted on December 21, 2019 by lolkin

Inspired by Ram Dass’s story of burning his possessions, his “stash”, and hopefully an impending house move (nomads never stop! 😊), I decided to go through the “memory boxes” where I store sentimental stuff – photos, travel souvenirs, small gifts … Continue reading →

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My book on love addiction is now out on Amazon!

Posted on December 12, 2019 by lolkin

It’s a truth universally acknowledged, that a writer in possession of a blog, must be in want of publishing a book 🙂 I went the self publishing route and did it. My mini guide to healing love addiction is now … Continue reading →

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New practice – a sensory deprivation tank

Posted on November 9, 2019 by lolkin

As you know, I love trying new practices that allow me to prod my unconscious 🙂  While researching what next practice to try, I learned that FloatWorks offer floating  in a sensory deprivation tank (ok, pod) in London and I … Continue reading →

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