When you realise you are stuck… you be stuck. You really be stuck. In the moment of stuckness is the key to the next liberation. It is the denial… trying to get unstuck that is feeding the stuckness. If you sit with it and you say – isn’t it a far out melodrama… you start to get space. Realise the total hopelessness of your predicament. You can’t get yourself out of being stuck anyway. And it is in that surrender into the hopelessness, herein lies the hope. You gotta let the horror show be to let the changes to occur.
Below are 3 events that I am aware of and am taking part in to mark these two great events.
I will be watching solstice at Stonehenge live (today 16:01 GMT and tomorrow 08:09 GMT). I am not an astrologist but I’ve heard there is something unique about it this year (a zero angle or something?), so I am game. Below is where to watch it:
Winter Solstice Festival from The Shift Network already started and today is the last day. I’ve attended some sessions yesterday, they were great so I am definitely tuning in today. Tickets are free, the event is in the US so starts at 10pm GMT: view programme and register here.
Finally, tomorrow at 18:22 GMT you can join in a 20min World Peace Meditation to mark the Great Conjunction (“Christmas star”, closest orbit between Jupiter and Saturn), contribute to the worldwide Ascension and enable the global awakening and consciousness shift that hopefully this energy event will catalyse. All info and how to join here.
Many of us are stuck at home, it gets dark early, many are struggling, so hopefully these three events can help connect and feel part of the global community as well as usher in a new, more conscious era in humanity’s history filled with more light and love. It is also a good way to rehearse sending off the 2020! See you on the other side! ☀️ ⭐️ 🪐
Ideally before bedtime, close your eyes and listen to this short meditation by Wayne Dyer from the book “Three magic words”. Try listening to it daily for a week as a practice.
I know that I am pure Spirit. That I always have been. And that I always will be. There is inside me a place of confidence and quietness and security where all things are known and understood. This is the universal mind, God, of which I am a part and which responds to me as I ask of it. This universal mind knows the answer to all of my problems. And even now, the answers are speeding their way to me. I needn’t struggle for them, I needn’t worry or strive for them, when the time comes, the answers will be there. I give my problems to the great mind of God. I let go of them, confident that the correct answers will return to me when they are needed. Through the great law of attraction everything in life that I need for my work and fulfilment will come to me. It is not necessary that I strain about this, only believe. For in the strength of my belief, my faith will make it so. I see the hand of divine intelligence all about me – in the flower, the tree, the brook, the meadow. I know that the intelligence that created all these things is in me, and around me, and that I can call upon it at my slightest need. I know that my body is a manifestation of pure spirit, and that spirit is perfect, therefore my body is perfect also. I enjoy life, for each day brings a constant demonstration of the power and wonder of the universe and myself. I am confident, I am serene, I am sure. No matter what obstacle or undesirable circumstance crosses my path, I refuse to accept it, for it is nothing but illusion. There can be no obstacle or undesirable circumstance to the mind of God. Which is in me, around me and serves me now.
Whether you are dealing with a negative family member, a friend who is being unnecessarily harsh, online trolls, some form of unjust treatment or whatever else – Matt Kahn’s reframing below is like a magical switch of perspective – flick! – to take you out of the drama and remind you of the “reality relativity” (Ram Dass). The harshest viewpoints are often made by those healing their deepest pain, indeed.
If you wonder why despite all your practice someone, a loved one, a friend, a random stranger, can trigger you so instantly and drag you down to their lower frequency (“vibrational co-dependency orbit”), don’t freak or question your practice – this is all part of the process. The world is indeed awakening and healing and this triggers multiple egos to lose it, including yours. All we can do is snap back into awareness, remember as soon as we can, return to our practice, deepen it and – “ah, so”.
I learned about this meditation on the Loner Wolf website. They call it the “Dark Night of the Soul meditation”. It is a healing practice for anyone going through the emptiness practice or the Dark Night of the Soul, and in need of a relief. The original mediation can be found on Loner Wolf, below is a 12min recording of it that I made for my practice. Chase that light (or rather BE the light) and take it easy, fellow nomads, in these “amplifying times” (Matt Kahn).
Strange things are afoot. A couple of years ago, I watched a documentary about an American shaman in Peru, Souther Hamilton, ayahuasca and his Blue Morpho retreat centre. It must still be somewhere on Youtube. Their ceremonies looked profound. More recently, I’ve listened to a podcast episode with Hamilton sent by a friend and wondered again what it would be like to take part in such a ceremony. Then one day, out of the blue, my fellow psychonaut has kindly extended me his spare ticket to a retreat by… Blue Morpho! The lockdown version is in a new, socially distanced, digital format, sans ayahuasca. But it is a good thing because a) I don’t need to travel all the way to Peru, b) I don’t have to worry about loosing my mind or c) having to wear an adult nappy (purging is strong with aya). I, of course, said YES immediately 🙂
We start tomorrow. It’s a full-time, 3-day commitment, with ceremonies, meditation, trance, bodywork and dieta (fast). Three day integration is recommended afterwards. Tea is involved, although made out of more common (and legal) plants. My tea of choice will be a mix of Hawaiian red rose, jasmine and mallow which I got as a gift. I really can not wait to see if the flowers speak to me and whether it will be one plant, and then which one, or all of them.
I may have mentioned here that I considered a guided fast before (with Sura Detox centre in Devon), to learn to empty physically, to explore hunger spiritually, which for me as a post Soviet child is a terrifying prospect. From this perspective, fast is a welcome practice. Will I last? Will I give in? Will hunger drive me mad? Or will I get enlightened? We will see. I chose a beginner fast which means I can have two 500ml juices (vegan smoothies rather) a day and a “lemonade” – hot water with lemon and parsley. All while having my boys at home cook nice smelling, carb rich meals…
We shall see. Will I be a new person next week? What will I know that I don’t know now? Will it all be a waste of time? I honestly don’t know. Off I go, to chase a blue butterfly 🙂 Stay safe and sane wherever you are locked down!
A fellow blogger Anthony Garner has recently plugged into the Universal Spirit and floated there blissfully ever since writing down his prayer like meditations on life and purpose. This post of his reads like a meditation and recharges with light. It instantly made me light-er. Enjoy!
To sit in dappled shade in the late summer sunshine. To breathe the soft cool wind, to close eyes and let the mind wander where it will.
Nomad of the Universe 