What does loving awareness feel like? I had no idea before. It was just a concept. Like one of my spiritual friends says, all you need to do is meditate and answers will come (or rather questions will dissolve but he left this one out).

And then I felt it, during meditation! That space that Ram Dass says lives between compassion and emptiness. Dalai Lama calls it warm-heartedness. Some call it spiritual heart.

It feels warm, weightless, joyful. Like that feeling you had as a child getting biscuits from grandma. Or that feeling you had in your 20s at a great party where the world seemed to expand and you were on top of it. Everything was possible. There was fire in your heart. It is also the same feeling you have when you look at your child and your heart fills with love.

Whenever you feel safe, hopeful, filled with love for everyone and everything – that is loving awareness.

The trick is to remember this selfless state and return to it as much and as soon as possible when low vibration emotions attempt to take over.

Loving awareness contains within it emptiness. You can drop negative thoughts and feelings into it. The warm glow of love is so strong – it will dissolve everything. In the Tibetan tonglen meditation practice a meditator uses loving awareness to convert world’s suffering into love and light.

I am nowhere near remembering the state of loving awareness when negative emotions like anger or righteousness take over. My work continues.