Alternative, beautiful translation of the poem by Saint John of the Cross here.
If you are going through the period of existential emptiness and spiritual depression, likely after a profound mystical experience, you may find this post by Loner Wolf helpful: 7 Omens That Herald the Dark Night of the Soul. Make sure you don’t miss the White Wolf meditation! I have a feeling that it can be very effective at getting one out of the plunging darkness of the empty void…
And while you continue to “positively disintegrate” 🙂 I’ll leave you with this other quote from A Dark Night of the Soul is a Period When God Works Deep Inside You:
The whole point of a dark night of the soul is not knowing. If we were aware of what was going on, we would disrupt or sabotage the process. We need to not know to get through it while allowing it to run its course and achieve God’s goals.
The main purpose of it all is not to attain something. Rather, there’s a certain consciousness — an awareness — that grows in the person who experiences this night. This will later lead to a full awakening — living from that ‘higher mind’ … God’s presence is not something you attain, but something that’s already there. You just become aware of it. You realize it… often through unlearning and getting rid of obstacles. That’s why the journey of true spirituality is often referred to as a path of descent. You have to become less.