And here it is – the culmination of my ‘magic mushroom’ retreat with the UK Psychedelic Society in September. The film made by Rebecca Coxon. In most of my appearances I am weeping and in one manage to sob while laughing. Perfect. Crying is a natural way of purging (another one is vomiting, eg like with ayahuasca) so it’s normal that I created a mini flood 🙂 Share your thoughts or your mind expansion experiences in the comments.
Update: I have added another blog post which you may find useful A Year Later: What Psilocybin Taught Me.
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I will watch the video tomorrow with pleasure. I have been micro dosing psilocybin for around three months and am at present unsure of the effect if any. Would you describe psilocybin as a breakthrough for you? Or would that be an exaggeration/
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Interesting! I coincidentally read this yesterday – check the dose? https://www.thisisinsider.com/what-is-microdosing-2019-1
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Thank you I will
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I saw others have breakthroughs, for me it was more of a shake up. It altered my perspective and gave the knowledge that I already had in my mind a feeling dimension which made it whole. Out of body and dying experience was terrifying but enlightening. And feeling of aliveness, of joy is something that I was very happy to reacquire.
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I like your blog and the many different approaches you take, many of which I have also considered, tried or at least investigated over many, many years. These days I am highly sceptical and for the distant future hope that David Pearce and his Abolitionist Project will find success in altering the pain pleasure axis. I am fascinated in consciousness but do not believe that we yet have the tools to modify our moods as we might desire.
I guess life for me is much more tolerable these days than it has been in the past. A lot of wrong paths followed. But my considered opinion and my subjective experience (so far at least!) is that we need physiological help with what appears to be at root a physiological problem in many cases (unhappiness, depression). Hence my interest in psilocybin. I have spent so much of my life considering my experience and the world at large and after all this time my feeling is that as humans we sometimes need to just adjust ourselves using more than will power and thought. I hope the day ma come when we have the medical ability to achieve that.
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I realised one thing after 2 decades of running around looking for happiness and enlightenment. All this exploring, growing and learning – none of it is necessary. Knowing and being rather than doing and becoming. I now understand there is nothing to achieve, but lots to shed. Shed everything and you will discover that there is nothing to discover, just life 🙂 it’s a massive 360 and a bit of a shock. Google ‘brain pickings blue jelly’ – excellent way to look at it.
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I don’t think there is anything to “understand” that’s for sure. Just life as you say. Mind you nothing has ever shifted the root of my depression and I suspect one day something like gene therapy may help. In the interim, I should probably go off grid somewhere like Alaska!
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Oh sorry to hear about it 😦 I’ve watched the Magic Medicine documentary this year where they use psilocybin to treat depression. It’a not a silver bullet treatment but seems to help some with chronic depression. Clinical trials are running in the US and UK at the moment, may be worth looking into?
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Medical way is only way. I recommend to look into meditation and buddhism. Then not only you will be able to control your mood, you will realise that mood is not even you! Buddhism is deep stuff, way more effective than psychedelics. Listen to Ram Dass’s Here and Now podcast episode on psilocybin – he explains it well.
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I very, very much like and appreciate Buddhism. It is utterly glorious and combined with Taoism is my preferred philosophy in life. I have occasionally visited the Thai temple in Wimbledon and visited many such places during my years in Japan and Hong Kong. I am not entirely convinced that meditation would enable me to control my mood but perhaps I have not tried hard enough. Although….I have certainly tried!
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Brilliant. I’ve learnt to meditate with the London Buddhist Centre and it really helped me get out of my head!
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Hmm…very good, most interesting. The retreat looked to be a wonderful experience.
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Thank you! It was but it was (and still is) lots of work also!
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